Ever since I was a child, I was drawn into the nighttime world, which the Blake Edwards’ show “Peter Gunn” expressed my need for shadows and cool jazz. As a teenager, I imagine my life as Gunn, where I had a beautiful mid-century apartment, with a gorgeous fuckable girlfriend who seems to visit him in the middle of the night. Gunn seems to be only active in the night, where he frequents a jazz nightclub called “Mothers” in a city that is not defined, but it appears to be a dock town. The surroundings strike me as being unnatural, even fake-like, which made me love the TV series even more. Throughout my life, I tried to find a jazz club like “Mothers, ” but realized that’s impossible, because here, the imagination rules, and I follow the rules of dream logic than the waking man’s reality.
I love the idea of a contained environment, for instance, the Korova Milk Bar, where one goes to get loaded on milk laced with drugs, where one can drink the milk with knives in it. It will sharpen you up. I went there to take mescaline, and as I sat on a couch that resembled a woman’s ass-cheeks and back, I let my mind wander into an invisible world, and just waiting for my ego to break down. That will never happen. Nevertheless, I left Korova and went to the Owl Drug store on Beverly and La Cienega to look at the displays of shampoo, hair creams, combs, and all sorts of beauty products. I couldn’t believe my eyes, and I felt I was really seeing these objects in a new ‘enlightened’ light. “If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is, infinite. For man has closed himself up. Till he sees all things through narrow chinks of his cavern.” The essence of moving among the buildings in the night, clearly I was looking for happiness, but one knows that “happiness would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”
Around 3:30 in the morning I arrived at my home, which over time, I tried to design it as Peter Gunn’s apartment, but I neither have the money or the shopping skill to make this work. Yet, my attempt to reproduce what I saw on television, it became a new interior. Not even influenced by, but more of a tribute that only I can see. I put on the song “Sonny” on the turntable which was written and performed by Bobby Hebb, but I much prefer the Manfred Mann instrumental version. Hebb wrote it as a reaction to the John F. Kennedy assassination but also to his brother who was killed a few days after the Kennedy death. He was inspired to write something that was ‘light’ and uplifting when his world (and others) went to hell. I admire the beauty of someone changing their perception of the world because if there is going to be a real change, one needs to start with themselves. Or, we flow with the crowd, but that I don’t recommend whatsoever.