T*** of Finland
Saturday, May 8, 2021
A gentleman is not a gentleman until he acknowledges his sexual passion. Like the 99% of the population, I have two lives. One is when I'm functioning on a public basis where I do my work and socialize in all sorts of settings. The one thing I do keep in private is my interest in sexual theater; as one knows, there is a role that is kept secret. It's the secrecy that appeals to my senses; the actual sexual act is what it is. Not that interesting unless there are traces of procedures, rules (that can be broken, of course), and a secure link for communication among lovers.
When I'm at my work table, I often do detailed drawings of images that come to mind. I can't imagine in my waking life that there is even a possibility of such an incident. Still, with a glass of wine and my thoughts wandering to other parts of the world, I can imagine a type of figure pleasing to my sensibility.
As life gets more structured with every hour accounted for, there is a need for a private space where one is not tied down to a schedule or even approval. It's here where I roam among the fellow natives of my desire as it goes from one space to another. There are parts of the body that I find pleasing, and when it is covered up, there is a mystery at work. It is a performance where one can tell that the other is interested. What happens afterward is where the imagination grows and gives pleasure. One is the driver, and I follow the direction that will take me from point A to B. Rarely does one go on a tour without a map. That document is another form of structure that pauses one on their way for sensual pleasures.
The world tends to ignore such urges because the landscape will turn into unknown situations that could be fatal to some if it is known. Secrets always have an index finger against the entrance between the lips. Nothing enters unless one gets the OK sign. My "art" is dirty, and I prefer that it never raises beyond its purpose, which is only to excite me. My waking life is one of service to the outer world, but it is in my inner world where I'm truly a King.
